Cue Future's, "Life is good."

Over the past month and some change, there have been a lot of realizations. MANY realizations actually. My life is actually really fucking great.

I have everything I have ever dreamed of, longed for, desired, all before the age of 30 years old. And while it hasn't always looked or seemed this way and hasn't been a beautiful path, by any means, that's okay. Because in the grand scheme, when I take a step back, it's all there. And in this blog, I am going to spell it all out for you and myself because I want to see this written down for my later memory and recollection. So if you don't want to read this fuck off and I'll see you at the next one.

Okay, here we go - "while my life got flipped, turned upside down" in the famous words of The Fresh Prince of BelAir, over the past three years - from dad passing, to getting fired from a job, to my dog dying in my arms in the park, to getting let go from a job that I loved to much, to really just having my whole entire ego and self view . . . shattered. And in what seemed like such a short but long damn drawn out time. It felt like a constant loop of just getting absolutely decked in the face by Mike Tyson. (Yes, I watched the bullshit Jake Paul and Mike Tyson fight recently and that is where that reference came from). Aside from that, which most of you here are WELL aware of, here are the positives and my perspective on them.

I have my OWN HOME - I have lived in my own home for almost four years now. THE SAME PLACE FOR FOUR YEARS. That has literally never happened. I have never been in one place for several years now, hell I changed every year in college or fuck, even after just a few months of buying my first house. Anyways, wild. My home is my sanctuary. My oasis. My comfort. My peace. There is nothing like coming home to YOUR space and YOUR space alone. No one else here besides my fur kids, the smell of weed and all the fresh oxygen my interior jungle provides me. I wish I knew how to better describe it besides just, peace. No matter how tense, sad, stressed, angry, I come in, as soon as I make it up those stairs from the garage, it's all gone (until about 15 minutes later when I'm back dwelling on it all after I've received my dose of love from my small farm).

I absolutely LOVE my car - My Model Y, is *insert chef's kiss. Period. End of story. All I have to say. You get it.

I have my "small farm" of animals in the city - From Zu, to Keeks, to now adding Cleopatra into the mix, we're back up to three pets! I still want another Doberman but I'll wait until I have more space for that.

I've got my family - Mom, Mak, Neal and Brooks are all good and I love that Mak, Neal and B live so close to me that I pretty much get to see them everyday. (I'm sure I don't have to say it but, of course I only care to see Brooks everyday. Neal's great too. Mak . . . every few days is fine.)

I love my job - And my job loves me! It's so easy going and my colleges are awesome, so funny, and the whole office is just a little "off it's rocker" it the terms of it's a small family business, if you know what I mean. They let me be me, no matter what that looks like and they trust me to do my job and do it well. They really value my opinion on things and push me in front of clients so that's great too.

I'm healthy - I don't weigh 200 lbs., I do yoga regularly so I can still touch my toes, I eat well for the most part, I can still enjoy a milkshake and not feel bad about it, and I love going for my walks with ZuZu. (I swear, having a working dog helps you stay active. But don't get one just for that reason . . . don't make me give you my "working dog" spiel.)

I have my friends - Wow, what a backbone they have been for me. Every single one of them. Each have supported and helped heal me in their own unique ways and I will forever cherish that about them.

I have MY PEACE - By this I mean that I am at peace with myself. I'm happy with me, seriously. I don't have many complaints and for that, I am beyond grateful. I know I am a good person, a great friend, a good partner, a go-getter, smart, beautiful, talented, wise, unique, all the good mf thingggssss. I know you know so let me hear you preach it 'bout ya self too.

To sum it all up in the words of Future, "Life is Good".

The end.